be God's light

 

for yourself as well as others

it may be all you need

more with one palette

 

 

we all are made up of one palette and we have many sides to our personalities

we should embrace them all

we should learn from them all

we should grow from them all

found moon

paint randomly and then look for unexpected surprises....found this moon over the water and land

life as it comes

paint colors randomly. dry. look for unexpected patterns. cut and paste to make finished piece.

kind of like life. we live random lives and events place us in unexpected places and situations. we try to cut and paste the life we want and sometimes it's best to not force it and just live with what we are dealt.

cross escape

landscape

one palette Kraft brown, black and white

woman-sometimes a mystery to herself

so many roles: wife, mother, daughter, caregiver.....
when: all day every day, 24/7
where: everywhere
how: exhausted

you are just right

covers speak

no matter how hard we try we do judge books by covers.
we judge people too quickly.
we pretend not to but we do.
please see the person inside.
notice the person's situation.
consider walking in the other person's shoes.

she's no angel

 

seeking a perfect world that does not exist

no one gets me

My life changed on May 31, 2009. My dad had a stroke. I saw just how much financial trouble my parents were in. I saw how bad my Mom's dementia was. I saw how unprepared I was for all this. As an only child I was sole caregiver. Then Dad died in 2013. Mom tried to stay home alone but it just didn't work. after 6 months she went into assisted living for 6 months. Medicaid never came through so she lived with me and my husband for 6 months. She is back in assisted living (special care unit for dementia) for nearly 3 months. I am still not dealing with it all too well. I'm completely exhausted and no one knows. I need all the home time I can get and no one gets it. I need peace and quiet and low activity but no one understands. I need space but no one give it to me. I just want to survive but no one cares. I need sleep but get little and no one believes it. I need to be allowed to set my own pace, schedule and timeline....no one gets me.

easily wounded

 

but God can heal every wound,

heal every scar,

and repair every broken spirit

Nature has healing power

no one sees the pieces about to fall everywhere

we all have relics in our lives that get us through situations

creative mysteries

      color outside the lines

      inspire imaginations

      solve problems

      connect with founders

imperfection keeps us real

did you look deep enough

It's all inside if we believe Rumi!

Creativity is born

Relic series

 

 

      face of revelation

      heart of gold

      convictions divulged

      full commitment  to family

      past present future

family issues are never simple

 

I enjoy Lifetime movies especially about family problems. We all have them. Some worse than others and some involving feelings, money, illness and relationships. My father died nearly 2 years ago. My mother is now in a special care unit for dementia. I have looked after them for the last 6 years. I was shocked when I learned how messed us their finances were. I'm still dealing with it. It just won't go away and I feel stuck and abandoned. Will it ever cease?

Relic Series

 

#4    touch of reality

      written by his own hand

      healing effort

      God’s miracle

      not enough

New Series - Relics

 

emotional message excavated

from deep within

expounded truth

         surrendered to those who wish to learn

from their past

Lenten series continues

finding new verses to embrace and rediscovering and gaining clarity of familiar passages

when will she balance it all?

 

 

when she can have clarity instead of confusion