Thursday, November 30, 2017

Prayer Plea for Healing our World's ills

Dear Lord,
                       You are the God of all things POSSIBLE. Heal our world. Every day the news gets more difficult to hear. I think Sodom and Gomorrah are growing rampantly across the world. Life is hard on good days but all the anti-Christ issues, the Biblical neglect and the mainstream religions being inclusive to the point of breaking God's sacred word is, well, a very scary thing. I think it's time we all get on our knees, pray, cry out and plead with You to handle this mess we've created.
                         God, you are the divine answer to the world's ills. I pray Christians will believe this as well and do all they POSSIBLY can to support the Ten Commandments, Scripture and Christ centered churches.
                                                                              In your Son, Christ's name,
                                                                               Amen

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

God can help!



 

God can:

Eradicate sin and replace with goodness

Eliminate fear and increase faith

Stop dread and allow looking forward

Remove darkness and unleash light

Release strongholds and replace with fresh mercies

Restore faith and fortify life

Replenish blessings with unbelievable grace

Cultivate love and grow empathy

Teach compassion and demonstrate caring

Encourage forgiveness and promote charity

Monday, November 27, 2017

courage to fight and influence a better world

 
 
 

Now is what we have.

Yesterday is gone.

Tomorrow is not guaranteed.

Live joyfully.

Drink in all of life.

Share life with those who matter.

Be grateful.

Take care of yourself, body, mind and soul.

Talk to God.

Keep things simple.

Get enough rest.

Never stop learning.

Breathe deeply.

Give to others.

Say thank you and please and forgive me.

 
Fight for a better world!

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

reflections of MOM


Mom was broken and only a few people knew. Most outsiders saw her as privileged and having it all. She had a loving husband, a good daughter, a nice home and a good paying but hard job. She spent too much time working when she was sick. She took time off for her parents. She worried. She slept. She could always sleep, thank goodness. I never sleep if I’m worried or sick.

 

Mom also let other people get to her. Whether they spoke purposely or unknowingly, mom always thought certain people flouted her, insulted her, played her or picked at her and she was totally undone by it. Thus, she (and dad and I) missed good times with family and friends. Mom missed much good and happiness by letting these things bother her. As a young person, I often asked why she let it get to her. Ignore it. Let it go. Forget it.  Shoot it back at them. All these things I told her and she tried none of it.

 

Mom died recently. I know now mom is no longer upset, frustrated or worried. That gives me great comfort. It also gives me great advice. Waste no time, energy or sleep over things that don’t mean a hill of beans, yep, one of those great old southern clichés.  I must admit. I have but not in the same way she wasted so much of her life. Things that don’t matter once we are dead also don’t mean anything when we are alive.

 

Long story short, life is short. Spend it well. Love. Laugh. Give. Be grateful.

still getting back to myself



slowly but surely with God's help

Sunday, November 19, 2017

life is funny but sometimes it works



I'm 62 today and I thank my sweet mom for my life, all she taught me to be and all she sacrificed for me. I love you Mom!


 
 
been working on this a couple days
guess it's as good a time as any to share
 
I walked through raining leaves of rust and gold.
Memories ran down my face.
                                                                   I hummed an old hymn.                                                                     
The melody danced around my heart.
I felt God’s grace in my broken soul.
Psalms restored me.
I finally felt whole in my life.
God’s faithfulness put me back together.
 

Saturday, November 18, 2017

thoughts of never again

never again will I get bad news about my parents
never again will I cringe at a certain phone number
never again will I worry over my parents' health
never again will I doubt they are happy
never again will I wonder what they need
never again will I wonder if I'm doing enough for them
never again will I feel life is unfair to them
never again will I be sad for their limited life
never again will I ask why they had to age

some never-agains are good

Thursday, November 16, 2017

release and receive

 
releasing your mom is necessary to receive her as you angel mom

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Monday, November 13, 2017

light

 
 

 

Life weary

I am tired but

God holds me and I rest in his embrace if only to the end of this sentence

 

Lost and broken

I need repair but

God glues the pieces of my life together again with his super glue of divine love

 

Hurt and questioning

I still feel confused but

God has the balm and the answers to both

 

Dark and scared

I tremble but

God is my light and protection

Saturday, November 11, 2017

to my favorite veterans

 
Broadus Lee Quinn, Korean War

 
Harry Sims Tessnear, WWII
 
thanks guys
the Army made you who you are

Thursday, November 09, 2017

Wednesday, November 08, 2017


tiny step by tiny step
I try to walk by faith
inch by inch
I try to move by trust
grace by grace
I try to shift by hope
 
 

Monday, November 06, 2017

God can


God can:

Eradicate sin and replace with goodness

Eliminate fear and increase faith

Stop dread and allow looking forward

Remove darkness and unleash light

Release strongholds and replace with fresh mercies

Restore faith and fortify life

Replenish blessings with unbelievable grace

Cultivate love and grow empathy

Teach compassion and demonstrate caring

Encourage forgiveness and promote charity

Sunday, November 05, 2017

i am ok but it's time to educate people about Alzheimers Disease


Everyone keeps checking in to see if I’m okay. Is it weird that I am okay? I don’t think I’m too broken because I was already broken from the past years dealing with her health, mind, decline and so forth. I had already lost my mother. She wasn’t dead but she could no longer really communicate, respond or participate in life with me.

Yes, I miss her terribly but I have for quite some time. I did not have a mother for the last six years or so. She was already with Alzheimer when dad had his stroke. The decline sped up after dad died and the last couple years.

 
I read somewhere today that once you have Alzheimer you continue to decline until death. That’s exactly what happened. It’s a sad cruel disease. It sneaks up on you stealing little thoughts and memories. Then it begins to steal days and eventually people, even your own family and best friends. Then it removes your abilities to dress yourself, feed yourself and at some point interest in food is gone completely. What surprises many people, is why Alzheimer kills; it is the simple reason that the brain is the computer of a body. It tells the body how to move, the lungs to breathe, the tongue and throat how to chew and swallow and for heart to pump blood through the body. We take our bodies for granted. God is a masterful artist, scientist, designer, and creator.


If only God could tell us how to cure it. For years my family was terrified of cancer. They wouldn’t even say the word. Now, every time someone forgets something, they say, “It’s not that. I don’t have it.”  Sadly, one of mom’s two remaining sisters is following the same pattern. She can’t see it. She doesn’t want to start the medicine. She doesn’t want to think about it, if she can.

 
This is the many faces of Alzheimer.

       


                                        terror          dissatisfaction      manic               disinterested

 

 

Emotions change rapidly and caregiving takes love, patience and understanding. The caregiver goes through the same emotions as the afflicted. I don’t think I should share these photos but I must. People need to understand the horror of Alzheimers Disease.

Friday, November 03, 2017

comfort in God's word

 
the family continues to heal and live with loss
the family leans on God and his word
the family prays
the family checks in on each other
the family sticks together

Thursday, November 02, 2017

Written for me to share



if you aren't familiar with the ee cummings poem (I carry your heart), please read it.....

Wednesday, November 01, 2017

reflections after Mom's passing

 
 

Life weary

I am tired but

God hold me and I rest in his embrace if only to the end of this sentence

 

Lost, broken

In need of repair but

God can glue the pieces of my life together with his own super glue

 

Hurt, questioning

I am still confused by life but

God has the balm and answers to every pain and inquiry

 

Dark, scared

I tremble but

God is my light and protector