paint colors randomly. dry. look for unexpected patterns. cut and paste to make finished piece.
kind of like life. we live random lives and events place us in unexpected places and situations. we try to cut and paste the life we want and sometimes it's best to not force it and just live with what we are dealt.
no matter how hard we try we do judge books by covers.
we judge people too quickly.
we pretend not to but we do.
please see the person inside.
notice the person's situation.
consider walking in the other person's shoes.
My life changed on May 31, 2009. My dad had a stroke. I saw just how much financial trouble my parents were in. I saw how bad my Mom's dementia was. I saw how unprepared I was for all this. As an only child I was sole caregiver. Then Dad died in 2013. Mom tried to stay home alone but it just didn't work. after 6 months she went into assisted living for 6 months. Medicaid never came through so she lived with me and my husband for 6 months. She is back in assisted living (special care unit for dementia) for nearly 3 months. I am still not dealing with it all too well. I'm completely exhausted and no one knows. I need all the home time I can get and no one gets it. I need peace and quiet and low activity but no one understands. I need space but no one give it to me. I just want to survive but no one cares. I need sleep but get little and no one believes it. I need to be allowed to set my own pace, schedule and timeline....no one gets me.
I enjoy Lifetime movies especially about family problems. We all have them. Some worse than others and some involving feelings, money, illness and relationships. My father died nearly 2 years ago. My mother is now in a special care unit for dementia. I have looked after them for the last 6 years. I was shocked when I learned how messed us their finances were. I'm still dealing with it. It just won't go away and I feel stuck and abandoned. Will it ever cease?