She listens to a voice without sound and somehow still gets the message. Maybe it was something only she could understand. Sometimes the messages that come to us in the strangest ways are the ones we most need to hear.
She feels her soul lighten a bit when the message arrives. Maybe she will be able to soar now above the pain and fear. Sometimes she finds it easy and sometimes it is impossible. Is she losing the faith she desperately hangs onto or is she just growing again?
She speaks in symbols that no one but God seems to understand. He listens when no one else does. Maybe they have their own language just for the two to get. Sometimes they communicate with no words at all. Those are the best conversations.
Lord, in your mercy…. Make my attitude more understanding. Make my words softer. Make my heart lighter. Make my life exemplary. Make my mind clear. Make my spirit true. Make my ways tempered. Make my ears alert. Make my hope a reality. Make my love real. Make my faith strong. Make my joy complete. AMEN
Image from an international mag ATC Quarterly. Mine is in the lower right (son Matthew's face when he was about 1 year old)
This is a short description of this past week while
with my parents for Dad's anuerysm repair.
Busy day Long day Good day Fear and worry melted into success and healing loneliness became family and friends' familiar faces tears of anguish became tears of joy and peace S~I~G~H R~E~L~I~E~F And prayers of pleas were answered becoming Prayers of praise rendered.
Dad's surgery was great! Everything as planned. Left at 615 AM. Call at 850 surgery began. Call at 1040, closing…noon recovery and x rays…one pm….we saw his tired but relieved it was over face….then tears of release as Dad learned his minister and 5 church buddies were waiting with us....(Bob Green, Charlie Harris, Horton Landreth, Herman Brackett, Donald Smart, Pastor Joey) What a beautiful moment to share with the man responsible for 1/3 of my life (Mom 1/3 and God 1/3) for without them I would not be here to help these two, my mom and dad….
A tired family Walks toward the lights of home A healing man taught his daughter
about the fruit of the spirit (Galatians 5:22-23) He exemplifies them all. A pure woman worries and frets over details
God is handling but never ceases to do her part. A fatigued and tired but inspired daughter strives
Fear is found 326 times in the Bible but FAITH is found 422 times. What should this tell me? Faith is bigger than fear. And what is fear? In the Bible many times it means to reverence the Lord. I must reverence all the time then. I have struggled with fear my entire life and why? Wasted energy. Wasted faith. Wasted time. Wasted PERIOD! If faith is bigger and stronger and used more times in the Bible then why do I let a little thing like fear (which is also a smaller word physically) trample on me and cause me doubt and pain and suffering? Human nature I guess! Sometimes I wish I wasn't so human but I am and the great truths of the Bible see us humans through anything, any day, any time. You just have to go to the scriptures. Read them. Trust them. Live them. I've always heard the phrase "we all have our little crosses to bear". Well, fear must be mine. I want to not fear. I will to not fear. I pray to not fear. So why do I fear? Weakness? Maybe. Faithless? NO! A favorite verse has carried me through so many fearful times (many of my own making I must add); but this is one of my very favorites of all times. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 So for now I'm going to rest in His righteous hand for a bit. I'm tired and weary from the worry and fear but I'm trying hard to let Faith win out.
This will be the last post for a few days. My Dad is having surgery Monday and I will be out of town with him and Mom. Lift lots of prayers please.
If you are a blogger or a blog reader you find yourself obsessed with reading too many blogs. So much is shared that is a common thread among people. Someone else speaks and your heart remembers. Someone else writes something and your soul identifies. Someone else describes something and you think "that could be me.' I read so many blogs I enjoy for content, images, emotions and inspirations. Do you remember Angela Cartwright, the little girl actress? She was a favorite I enjoyed as I grew up and now she's a world class artist and photographer as well. I truly enjoy her artwork and blog. Here is the link to it http://acartwrightstudio.blogspot.com/ and I particularly enjoyed her post on April 17 (Things I've learned) so check it out for yourself and see if you don't get hooked as well. And you just may want to make your own list.
another journal image....this one is digital completely......
Design the page with multicolored spots as an animal print. Use the magazine stencil idea (cut out model and use shape as a stencil, and paint around, careful not to over paint and disturb the spots underneath). Draw lines on part of the page and write a message. I call this Spot Check.
your own self, your own limitations, and your own needs. Time must be allowed to discover this self knowledge and make use of it. And this journal page is a work in progress. The swirly maze background was done a couple weeks ago and the shadow figures added yesterday. Time will tell me what to add next.
God sends both the sun and the rain. He heals the hurt and the pain. God holds us up and guides us through; He knows our damages and provides the glue. God gives both joy and grace. Follow Him and see him one day face to face.
Image is for Somerset submission-theme- Aubergine (a shade of purple and also means eggplant), acrylic paint on foam core, paint samples from home improvement store, mod podge